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Saturday, October 17, 2009

好久没写日记了。。
这两个星期变成煮饭婆了，妈妈一个多礼拜前在家门口跌倒了，伤到脊椎骨，你能想象吗，一个被压扁的汽水灌，其中一届有稍微的骨折，这可需要6到8个星期的时间才能愈合，妈妈常看的物理治疗师说，这段时间最关键，千万千万不能再跌倒了，要不然后果会很严重。

刚开始那几天，妈真的很痛，我看到心也疼，只好在家照顾她，洗衣煮饭什么的，也能说上是庆幸吧，因为我暂时没全职工，所以时间还蛮松的，就多点留在家里，陪她去看医生，没去打球，也没上健身房。爸也蛮奔波的，一有时间就会回来，载我们去医院，看中医师，看物理治疗师。从跌倒那天下来的一个星期，我的日常生活，平时做的东西，都停止了。

我发现了一样东西，我好喜欢煮饭哦，看到吃的人赞不绝口，我也很开心，只是不是很喜欢洗碗。。哈哈。。

昨天妈告诉我说，她觉得好多了，躺和坐起来的时候也没那么痛了，听了之后，我也放心多了，毕竟到了一个年龄，跌倒可不是一件小事。。还是要谢谢我吉隆坡的亲戚们，知道了后，都很关心，我大舅母还特地打电话出来问候呢。。

还是亲情可贵！

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

After all the persistence, i have no idea if the decision i made then was the right one.

After waiting for so long, all that waiting seems to have come to nought.

After all that's been said and done, i do not know right from wrong anymore.

After all these years, i have no idea what is going on in everyone's life anymore.

So, the question is, what am i to do now?

Saturday, September 12, 2009

This blog of mine has kinda been neglected since i do updates on facebook. Hah, anyways, i've been trying to start on an exercise regime which has since been halted when it barely started cos of my swollen eyes. It's the "feng-mo" thingy that i have at least once a year, Sharon recalls me having it when i was still in Brissy. My eyes were so puffed up that i lost my double eyelids and one could only see half my eyes, i looked terrible so i stayed at home the entire thursday when i was supposed to go for gym classes in the morning.

Gymed on Monday, played basketball ol' school style at the neighbourhood CC, got to know a group of people that plays table tennis regularly at tampines sports hall through a forum linked from Raymond's blog, so i went down to cure the itch on wednesday, ultimate shiokness, shall aim to play table tennis at least once a week.

Scoopz didn't need me on friday so i didn't go down for work, felt that my eyes were better so i headed down to meet my brissy gang for our usual dinner session, had i known we were going to Suntec i might have given it a miss cos i forgot that it was the comex weekend, so it was CROWDED. Crowds give me headaches, haha, supposed to head down to Newton Food Centre but it was closed, nearly cabbed down when liwen called to tell me the place was closed and heading to Suntec instead.

Work was ok today, top of my eyes still a little puffy so i wore my specs to work so that the focus won't be on my unnatural double eyelids.

Emailed the immigration to ask about my citizenship, the reply was that it is still under "active consideration", and i have no idea what the heck that means.

Patience is the key although i don't know how long more i can hold out. I wanna go on a HOLIDAY!! but i have no money!..sadzz

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Made kaya today at Popo's place with Shiow Chui Jie Jie. It was supposed to be a hush-hush affair in the kitchen but because they were fixing something in the kitchen so in the end we had to make it in front of the house where the neighbours could see us and people walking in and out of the house. They were trying to ask Popo about the exact recipe but she didn't exactly say. She say cannot reveal to outsiders, only family can be taught. HAHA!! So pardon the lack of pictures although we took down the whole process but only the beginning and the end can be shown cos this is SECRET FAMILY RECIPE!!..hahahhaha

Starting..

Me...

Shiow Chui Jie Jie..

Woo hoo!! Almost done..

TADAA!!..DONE!! popo scooping into the bottles for it to be cooled..shall pick them up tmr before i leave for Sg in the afternoon.. KAYA SUCCESSFUL!! hopefully i can try making it on my own.. Popo said that today's kaya is VERY good..TOP GRADE!!haha..

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I'm in KL!!!! As usual, my cousins are forever hospitable, bringing me for good food, giving me a nice room to stay, i'll normally stay at my cousin's place if i'm alone in KL cos i'll be bored to death if i were to stay at Popo's place.

Dinner @ Seoul Korea near their place last night.

the grape minty candy that they gave after the meal, quite nice..

went over to visit popo, saw this new frame in the house done up my by my biggest uncle, some of the pictures taken were like 10 yrs ago!! when i still didn't know how to smile properly cos that was before i had my braces, and when i was still skinny..HAHAHA

some pastry shop near my cousin's place..the cakes are nice..and cheap too..bout RM4+

Just came back from visiting my biggest uncle and seeing the 2 monkeys Andrew & Ryan..

Monday, August 17, 2009

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Peace Out - MIA for 4 days

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

NDP this year had my emotions all messed up. Maybe i am too emotional, but i was touched by this year's performances and arrangement, especially the NDP songs, they get me choked up with tears most of the times. The different chapters, one of Singapore's achievements thus far, when the table tennis victory over the South Korean was shown, flashbacks of August 08 came running through my mind, and for a second i got to relive the moment where Tianwei and gang gave Singapore our first Olympic medal ever since independence. The olympics, one event that made a change to my life, got to know a new friend, more lots more new friends, life became much more interesting after Aussieland. 谢谢某人让我生活更精彩。

BUT i can't help but feel that all these is rather ironic, why, you may ask, because i am NOT a Singapore citizen, i hold a Malaysia passport. Then negative thoughts start infiltrating my mind again, it has been 6 months, 6 LONG months since my date of application for Singapore citizenship, i can still remember what the officer told me:
1) You are born in Sg, no problem.
2) You are a university graduate, no problem.
3) You GREW UP in Sg, no problem.
Then what seems to be the problem for the long wait here, i possess everything they require, oh heck, i can recite the pledge, sing the national anthem, i can sing our national day songs in 4 languages no less. I know patience is the key, but i do get sick of waiting sometimes, and with people pestering me give ICA a call to enquire about the application, it just GETS ON MY NERVES!!! And when things like that happens, i just want to get away from Singapore, and my wish shall be granted. I'm heading BACK to KL for 4 next week, to learn some culinary skills from my grandma, and to take a break from the frustrations here.

Tasks to do tomorrow:
1) Swim if the weather is fine, gym if the weather is not.
2) Head down to Novena Square to get my bus tickets to KL.
3) Trim my hair.
4) Dinner with the brisbanites at cityhall.

Well look at the time, 2.40am, i went to bed at 11:45pm and couldn't get to sleep, and they usually say when one can't get to sleep, it's mainly because they are stressed out or have things in their mind. I guess blogging's a good way to lift the heavy rock from my heart.