footprints

Monday, January 23, 2006

i've been having sleepless nights..trying so hard to not think about wad has happened and study for test instead..but it's soo hard...everytime i try and close my eyes to go to sleep or rest..the whole freaking game just sorts of replays itself like some kinda auto video in my mind and it's killing me!!!!..

someone told me that it's over and not to think about it anymore..BUT it will NEVER be over...till the next IVP the whole damn thing will happen again, it is the ending that might be different..for 2 yrs now history repeated itself..

not many people can understand this kind of feeling unless u are in or have been in a similar situation before..so i would appreciate if u dun ask me about it..cos i'm tired of talking about it when u won't understand the plight i'm in..

i had a stupid thought..i might just fail the mid-sem tests and come back and repeat 4.2 and get my revenge and SP..but the thought was very fast banished..how dumb can i be..i shouldn't even be thinking about it..i should be thinking of how to motivate the team to get our placing, pride and glory back in the next IVP..JIA YOU!!!..i might come back and train with u all k??..BB's rite..how can i give up something that has been so influential and memorable in my life??..

anyways..VERY VERY happy for the volleyball girls..for they made it into the semis due to some ruling thing..not many ppl get 2nd chances in life..they got to play with the team again..which is something that will never ever happen to me again...so u gers gotta cherish ur time together again k?!...haha...

i'll be there to support the match against SP..TP JIA YOU!!!..