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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

i miss..

1) Precious time spent with my family..
2) Life in TP
3) Table tennis training sessions..all the laughters and after game dinner sessions at coffeshop..
4) Competitive matches
5) Time spent as a team, the bond we had was incredible
6) Frens
7) Home-cooked meals

i'm having a miserable time at work, my wrist hurts, my legs are sore when i wake up in the morning..why am i making myself so hurt and injured. i see my parents for less than an hour each day.im'each day i wake up and have to go to work..

i only get to eat dinner at home twice a week..one off day and one half morning shift..with off days..i hav to split between family and frens..wanna spend it with angels but with our own life it's so hard to meet up..i missed the time we used to have..the periods of ban mian dinner at Bedok are short but blissful..i love their presence around me...i hope next week's dinner date is on..even though there might only be 5 of us..

i'm sad having to put up with shitty customers..they piss me off yet i have to flash my million dollar smile at them but they dun seem to care..

i'm thinking of bringing forward my studies date..to march..only to think that it's 7 months away..how am i going to cope in australia without mum and dad..it's gonna be hard.. 7 more months to cherish the ppl around me before i go into a total different environment..if i bring it forward to march..how??

have to settle my citizenship thing fast..then again if the uni application is approved and i need to study 2 yrs i will hav to revaluate my choices in singapore again..my parents made it clear that they can only afford 1 and a half yrs plus my own savings..and i clearly noe my limits too..will try to save wad ever i can to lessen their burden..

hav to really thank my uncle for revealing the fact that he's willing to partly support me financially and i noe that my parents dun wanna owe him much..hai..will see..

if i bring it forward to march, i will be short of 3 months salary..how??..

there is not a day i do not think of school, study, money australia..when??..

it's driving me crazy..i look so haggard nowadays..so tired out from work..it's a tough job..why am i still there??..i dunno..