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Thursday, February 22, 2007

well, so i'm in Brisbane, touched down this morning..

thanks so much to the people who sent me off yesterday, i really appreciated it, me not crying doesn't mean that i dun love all of ya jus as much, i was jus trying to hold back as much as i can as i dun wanna make my parents worry if they see me crying, also i wanna let them know that i've grown up and can take care of myself already, in addition i noe that that bunch of girls will start crying once they see me tear...

i was really struggling with myself, having to smile at all of you all and really wanting to tell you all that i miss you guys loads. some of you must be wondering why i didn't really go talk to my parents, it's because i know that i'll cry once i tok to them...i wanted so much to hug them before going into the gates but i just couldn't, cos i knew that if i did, i would be afraid of letting go..

i settled my school stuffs with the help of qianhui today, will be going down to school to meet with the advisor as well as getting the student id card done tomorrow..

called home a couple of times and i think i'm gonna be suffering from dehydration cos i've been bawling my eyes out everytime i call home..i really wanna have a good chat with them and not cry and have them worry about me..esp my dad, hearing him say that's he's more worried when i'm crying made me feel worse..

will be calling them again before i go to sleep, hopefully i can really have a nice chat with them and not cry again..must CONTROL!!!..

the 365 days calendar filled with words of encouragement is really a thoughtful gift, but i can't help but tear when i turn each page...but those words will definately keep me going..SAU MUN!!BE STRONG!!..u noe who u are..u girls will always have a special place in my heart..

i'm keeping my spirits up, cos it's gonna be march soon, and in november i'll be able to go back to singapore and see my family and frens again..and it's jus about 9 months!!! 2 semesters!! once i start school i presume time will pass by rather quickly..

to rui: i dunno if u are reading this, but that well thought letter,as well as that drawing of scoopz will spur me on too..ur words of encouragement i will definately keep in mind..i see u back in singapore when i come back..and i go work part-time in scoopz again..ehhee..

to all who cares, dun worry about me, i'll cry and be a bit upset these couple of days, but i'll try and get used to it and live life to the fullest..!!oh..and there i go again tears come free flowing when i think about my parents..